Well..since i reach hme early today... im gonna update.. well i feel diff today.. maybe bcoz usually i went hme late..
im gonna share sumthing w yar... Yest.. i shed too much of tears..it keep flowing non stop.. if yar noticed in the morn my eyes was a bit "bengkak".. but i managed to hide it w make ups~~ Firstly my body was so damn tiring.. The day b4 that i slept at 3am..and woke at 4.40aam... so i slept bout 1hr and 40 min onlie~~ To make it worse my class finish at 5pm.. and i reach hme at 730..
Secondly i never ate anything or simply said i nvr ate anything frm 4.40am till 730pm.. When i reached hme i tot..my mom had cook dinner but haiz... so i went to sleep w my empty stomach.. I can feel like as if my body was so lemah that i ignored everyone in e hse esp my dad ... I remind my mom to woke me when she finish cooking..but she didnt..but i managed to wake up myself at midnight.. but..... as i open the rice cooker.. theres was no rice..
Frm there i started to cry like hell.. itz not because there was no rice or wat... but my body i cant tahan i was tired ..lemah...and angry at the same time.. my body dont function well.. my hand was trembling(mcm goyang2 gtu) ..the glass that i hold slip of frm my hand and it was broken of coz.. frm there my tears keep flowing and flowing..
well anyway i had a gr8 rest.. and i woke up late of coz.. ahah! aku mcm write compo gtu! haha!
Well.. my friend kept asking me.. whether im serious or what w him.. im still in the process of making decision.. i dun wanna make a wrong decision.. i've been contactin him.. nowadayz ni.. and he knows that i contacting sumone.. thnz for understanding my decision.. i cant rela see eu like this.. i mean u been treating me well.. u treat me as urz but i dun wanna hurt u again like i did since 2 yrz ago.. i dun wanna give u high expectation... coz as u know im waitng for seseorng ni..
i know im like an idiot..waitng for him.. i tried but i feel as if he will ..... me one day.. i know you are not ready.. well but dun worry guyz i move on ready.. i decided to give others a chance.. im a useless...girl.. im sorry to those whom i give yar a false hope.. sometimes i doin this bcoz im trying to teach u guyz a lesson bcoz of my past incident .(itz not about my ex ,but all the scandals out dere!!!!!! haha) i may sound like a bitch.. And i believe in KARMA! what goes around comes around..
but i alredi changed.. im sorry to those guyz out dere... ..
